The bitter and sweet of it

All I wanted was to have a fine xmas. but life is a crap anyway.now I am a coward, an escapist and because of ME, everything is worse than it was meant to be.

Have you ever wanted to disappear?

I hate all of this.I hate the time.I hate being what I am. I hate feeling what I feel.I hate the years. I hate everything.

World, please, blow up soon.