Sleepless

She searched for the bright moon, but couldn't reach it.
She searched for the stars but they were too far.
She searched for some meaning, but it wasn't there.
She searched for a heart...but it was empty.

It was snowing.Cold and white flocks were falling on the trees outside, and even tough she could see them, she wasn't looking at them.She was looking into herself.Desesperately trying to find an answer for the major doubt.How things ended up that way?
What has she done wrong?
Where were the mistakes?
Too much care?
Too much protection?
Too much love?

what in the earth was wrong with that?
It's been more than two years now and she still coulnd't be fine.She always wondered if she would ever be fine again.
All her strenght was took away, all the things she stood for were ruined.
She looked for new hearts.She looked for new ideals....she looked for...a new life.But they weren't there.

Maybe that old 'angels metaphor' had some meaning after all.We are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another... But why was her angel so far away?